what i want
its important to remind youself what you want, what you’re working towards. what ar esome concrete goals that i have for msyself?
right now i look at my life and feel resentuful towards my younger younger self for wasting all the time that i did. how far could i have gotten if i kept up the little things each day. i have a terrible headache right now, couldnt evn walk around because every time i move fast my head hurts more.
im yping all of thise with my eyes closed and im probably not going to proof read it either.
in a year from now, i hope ive…
paid off my parents house (or am at least onmy way to doing so)
live in raleign nc (or some city— anywhere but here man)
am physically fit and healthy (much more so than now)
in a stable relationship (?). is it bad to yearn for that? i just miss the touch and companionship and the idea of having someone to go to. and i also want to grow and become someone with someone. i done want to become someone and then meet them. i want struggle to bee something that we go through together.
not working ar egular job. i hate right now that i am soley reliant on my wokplace for income. that sucks. i cant travel, i cant make my own decisions, i can just live life how i think life was meant to be lived. this trapped environment is so far from wwho i want to be.
i want to maybe pursue acadmeia and hoepfully ive made some solid stpes towards that.
209 - 10/13/2025