being scared of silly things

i really do need to face rejection more often, or rather, put myself in situations that make me open to rejection.

i can’t get over how i would see sophia around for months and i always wanted to tell her that story with the most honest intentions and could never muster the courage. i get so scared of rejection, not in general i would say, but from girls specifically. and well i guess in this case i dont even know how she could reject me but it does feel like a reflection of my own self worth and confidence if shes willing to talk to me or have a conversation.

youre not everyones cup of tea, but youre someones favorite cup of tea. imagine if everyone in the world had the same favorite dessert, or the same favorite drink. wouldnt that be more boring? i think so.

my point is that it shouldnt impact what i think about myself, it says more about the other person than it does about me.

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187 - 09/22/2025