goodbyes and moving on

i fall in love very easily. i dont mean romantically either. as a generally true fact about me, when a person or place has a profound effect on me, i find it difficult to let them go. there was a point in my life i didnt have them and going back to life without the person or place seems unimaginable. i remember leaving middle school, i felt the same way. those halls had made me. it was in the confines of those walls that i fell in love for the first time. i came out of my shell, i made friends, i fell in love with learning. the process of becoming was the people, but the tangibiles— the smells, sights, sounds— those were the place. i remember wandering middle school on the last day wondering what the future would hold. i know i was just as curious then as i am now. and if the 22 year old version of me could go back and talk to that kid, id tell him to get ready, it gets better. high school was cut short because of covid and leaving didn’t give the same feeling. but here i am, again, at the end of college feeling what that kid felt in middle school. i know that lifes experience is unknown and it can’t stay good forever.

still, i need to move on, let the past be the past. i said goodbye to nc state today. it made me who i am today, but right now my job and my position will define who i am. im grateful for the time with my parents and the privilege of working the job i have right now.

anyway, the art of letting go (im working on it)

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123 - 07/20/2025