pressure cookers

we had a new manager start full time today at my job. wow, is it different. im still in the process of learning how to be good at my job and today i felt totally incompetent.

im trying my best. im honestly seeing this as a good challenge, preparing myself for work for the rest of my life. its the first time ive had a challenge like this with pressure this high.

im curious to see how ill fare. do i think about quitting? yeah, about a 100 times a day. will i actually quit? never. im a lot of things and a quitter is not one of those things. ill make finite work eventually, ill have to sneak it in during the week days and really grind for it on the weekends.

i think i should also plan a really nice weekend for my family. we wont go out, but let me show them how much i appreciate them.

anyways, yes, that is my life right now. i have a lot to learn and a long road ahead of me. i will get through this just fine. ahh how crazy is this? the first big challenge in my life is at the ripe old age of 22 and its self inflicted. if i ever run out of reasons to continue, i will remind myself the my father has probably gone to a job he hates for 18 years every day for the sole purpose of providing for his family. its my responsibility and duty now. i owe it to my father to try now.

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103 - 06/30/2025