promises

when you’re young, you really do believe anything is possible. it feels as though your dreams are yours to conquer, limited only by your passion and determination to get the job done. youre not aware of how messy life gets, how unpredictable it can be. theres an invincibility you feel, your energy limitless, your joints frictionless, and your world limited only by the boundaries your parents set.

the most intense feeling of it all, though, is that feeling of first love. my first love was intoxicating yet pure. shes all i would think about, day and night, and id imagine my entire future with her.

it took me 3 years to convince her to date me, but i did! and i remember exactly when and where i was when i first heard her tell me she loves me.

we didnt end up working out but as a kid, i believed with every fiber in my being that she would be with me for the rest of my life.

tomorrow, June 25th, 2025 was supposed to be our wedding day. that was a promise we’d made to each other.

im doing better now, i think. shes happy. im happy. thats good. but there isn’t a thing in this world i wouldnt do for her even now. thats a promise i am willing to keep.

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97 - 06/24/2025